Baby - Owen is so solid and heavy now, he feels so much like a real person. I know that sounds weird, but it’s like I can see him transitioning from newborn to baby. He definitely stays awake more now and can entertain himself on his activity mat. Wait – did I say that last week? Well, it’s even more obvious this week. He clearly laughs and smiles now which is SO rewarding and we all love it. He has been clusterfeeding a LOT lately, but then slept for almost five hours last night. Awesome. He did amazingly at Mommy & Me today. I swear he loves it there. He just sleeps, eats, and lays on his blanket. No fussing. So sweet and calm. He has grown out of Newborn clothes and into the Newborn Honest diapers (which didn’t fit him at first). Annnd he is just…doing everything he’s supposed to be doing ☺
Me - I am doing SO much better. First of all, breastfeeding. I am back to feeding him on both sides. Which means no more pumping AND feeding, which is such a relief. While it can still be painful at times and my nipples are not fully healed, I am feeling so much more confident about it. At the Mommy group today I fed him like a champ and felt so proud. Physically, we took a really long walk to the beach this weekend and I felt sore afterwards. Sore in my perineal area – ouch. Sore in all of my other neglected muscles – good. My body originally lost a lot of weight and seems to have plateaued. I attribute that to the Holidays and I’m okay with that. In total, I am still up a little over 10 lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight. Finally, I have started looking forward to things in the future and feeling excited about things again. This weekend is my 32nd birthday and I will be going out to dinner with B whilst my sister watches Owen at home. Big deal!
Other Stuff- We have taken Owen out to restaurants twice now. I realize other families take their babies out before one month, but that is how long it took us, and I’m trying to be ok with doing things on our own timeline. Owen did great at both meals. I’m thinking I will miss this stage when he can sleep through an entire meal. At the Mommy & Me Group today, we had to say what we had to give up to be a mother. I think I answered that in my post about breastfeeding. Being a mother seems to take away a part of my independence and identity. But, I’m realizing it replaces that with something else entirely.
What have you given up to be a mother? This pertains to those of you who are already moms, are currently pregnant, or who are still trying.