I was reading through old blog posts earlier...do you guys do that? Read your old posts? How narcissistic a past-time. The neatest part was reading my entries from the cycle I got pregnant. The theme of that cycle seemed to be "I don't care" which, I guess, worked well in the end.
Anyhow, another thing I noticed was that I had been trying to post entries on what I was eating (WW style) each Wednesday. I think I only managed it about 3 times total. But looking at that made me so sad about the way I've been eating lately. Food is so lack luster, unexciting, and completely unhealthy. Then, I read Sarah's post about her own eating habits since getting pregnant, and that just sealed the deal for me.
And what miraculous conclusion did I come to? Well, I'm still sick. But not AS sick. I've only puked twice in the last four days (an improvement). The exhaustion still reigns supreme, but the constant nausea has turned into intermittent nausea throughout the day (another improvement). So, I thought, goddamnit, it's time to kick myself in the pants and rejoin life. Stop eating soulless food and being miserable.
So I got off the couch and cooked dinner. I had a few meltdowns when I couldn't cut the steak or an entire cupboard of tupperwares came tumbling down into my lap (can someone please invent a good way to store tupperware?) But, eventually, I presented myself and my husband with a true, steak-and-potatoes, homecooked meal. Healthy in a nutritious, real-food way (although, sadly for my husband, not a low-cal way).
What do you think? Are you impressed? Goddamnit, I am. Here's to me, tipping a toe back into real life??
p.s. I think the whole point of this home-cooked meal was to find an excuse to eat some sour cream.