Wednesday, February 20, 2013


So I'm still holding my breath here. It's been such a weird experience. I always envisioned getting a positive pregnancy test, screaming, crying, and jumping around. Followed by a sentimental moment in my husband's arms. But, I think I've ruined it for myself. I've read too much and know too much. So instead, I am biting my lip with cautious excitement. Wiggling in my seat with apprehension. But no screaming and crying.

The closest I got was last night in my car, singing at the top of my lungs to Lovefool by the Cardigans. Not typical for me and NOT a pretty sight.

Little things keep slipping out. Like when I said to my husband, "We'll have a baby by next Thanksgiving," or "The test says I'm still pregnant. Whoa, I'm pregnant?" But it's still hard. I think it will feel real when we tell our families. Which, incidentally, I think will happen this weekend. My husband's parents will be in town visiting, so there's no way we will be able to keep it a secret (we're both terrible at keeping secrets). So once we tell them, of course I'll want to tell my family. And then, after's out in the open and will feel oh-so-much more real. Wow.

In the meantime, this helps:


  1. You lucky girl. Just let yourself be happy :)

  2. It doesn't feel real for most people for a really long time. So thrilled for you, just embrace the bewilderment. Send me some of your luck- testing next week...

  3. I am so so happy for you...this is the best news! Wishing you the very best of luck and please know that I'm sending all my good thoughts and vibes your way ((hugs))

  4. Congratulations, I am very happy for you!!!

  5. Continuing to be insanely happy for you guys!

  6. =) I think it's normal to have it not feel real. I mean, it's not like you're like Bella and having a hybrid baby! lol! Pregnancy is a process, just like anything else, and it takes time to get used to it! But in the meantime, just be happy!! Don't be afraid of what might be--love that little one with everything you've got. =D

  7. Yayyyy!!! I knew it!
    Try to just be happy but rest assured, the denial will hang around for a while. After you try for several months (you and I had to wait for almost exactly the same amount of time)it's hard to accept that a pee stick is being nice to you for once. But it is.
    I'm so, so happy for you. :o)

  8. Ryanne ~ You literally just made me laugh out loud. "Bella with a hybrid baby." Hahahah

    Everyone ~ Thank you so much for the ongoing love and congrats. You are all right...LUCK is the opportune word here. I feel extremely lucky right now.

    HiLLjo ~ How funny that we tried for the same amount of time!

  9. Oh and I think mixed feelings, and being scared are quite normal. Along with happiness, joy, awe.... all together. Just let yourself feel all of it and know that we are here for you, to listen to it all.
    BTW I just remebered, Liz at Happy sighs wrote a series,"Babies are scary", that I think is really good.

  10. Isn't that an amazing sight?? Thinking about you as you wait for the next step.

  11. Wow, not tentative at all, you are definitely pregnant! Enjoy this time before the morning sickness & nausea sets in, 'cuz that ain't no fun.

  12. I know I'm a little late posting this (I've been reading from the beginning!), but CONGRATS!!! How wonderful for you and your DH!

    1. Sarah, thanks for reading! Welcome to my blog and thanks for the congrats!


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