I was reading through old blog posts earlier...do you guys do that? Read your old posts? How narcissistic a past-time. The neatest part was reading my entries from the cycle I got pregnant. The theme of that cycle seemed to be "I don't care" which, I guess, worked well in the end.
Anyhow, another thing I noticed was that I had been trying to post entries on what I was eating (WW style) each Wednesday. I think I only managed it about 3 times total. But looking at that made me so sad about the way I've been eating lately. Food is so lack luster, unexciting, and completely unhealthy. Then, I read Sarah's post about her own eating habits since getting pregnant, and that just sealed the deal for me.
And what miraculous conclusion did I come to? Well, I'm still sick. But not AS sick. I've only puked twice in the last four days (an improvement). The exhaustion still reigns supreme, but the constant nausea has turned into intermittent nausea throughout the day (another improvement). So, I thought, goddamnit, it's time to kick myself in the pants and rejoin life. Stop eating soulless food and being miserable.
So I got off the couch and cooked dinner. I had a few meltdowns when I couldn't cut the steak or an entire cupboard of tupperwares came tumbling down into my lap (can someone please invent a good way to store tupperware?) But, eventually, I presented myself and my husband with a true, steak-and-potatoes, homecooked meal. Healthy in a nutritious, real-food way (although, sadly for my husband, not a low-cal way).
What do you think? Are you impressed? Goddamnit, I am. Here's to me, tipping a toe back into real life??
p.s. I think the whole point of this home-cooked meal was to find an excuse to eat some sour cream.
Way to go! That looks great! I still don't like to bother with food much, especially cooking it. It kind of grosses me out for some reason! In early pregnancy, I had a poor appetite and ate mostly Ramen noodles LOL! Luckily our bodies do what they need to do to keep baby healthy. :-) I'm glad you're doing better, and I hope the puking stops for good very soon!
ReplyDeleteYeah...I still have the poor appetite and nothing really sounds good (except the sour cream!), but I feel like I need to force myself to start eating better. For the baby, but also for me. I know when I eat well I have more energy and just feel better overall. We'll see if I can keep it up.
DeleteI'm impressed...last night was leftover frozen pasta sauce, didn't even make garlic bread. It was sad!
ReplyDeleteWell, tonight was pasta sauce out of jar (expensive sauce, but still jarred sauce!), so you are one up on me with the homemade sauce!
DeleteGirlfriend, if someone invents a way to store tupperware they would be a GENIUS!!!!
ReplyDeleteI thought it was interesting that you read your old posts, I never read my old posts! I'm too critical of myself, I almost wish I could delete all my old posts...
That meal looks delicious, good for you! Who doesn't love steak and potatoes? I'm glad you are feeling better :)
Yeah...maybe I'm the only one who re-reads my posts, but I get a kick out of it. I agree about being critical, but mostly I just like to see how my thoughts have changed.
DeleteGood for you for cooking. i am not there yet, though I have been trying to expand the foods I am eating. I had a little steak the other day and even a little salad and hummus yesterday. It all tasted good and I had no problems eating them but they still don't sound appealing when I think about them. I think I have to re-train my brain into liking these foods again. I think I am just scared of food now. Also, I have been loving sour cream lately. I always liked it but don't really eat it because it's so fattening but now I make a baked potato just so I have something to put sour cream on.
ReplyDeleteYes. They DO taste good and I can eat them, but I have to force myself because, really, nothing sounds good. I'm trying to kick myself in the pants a little. Yay for sour cream!
DeleteI remember when I finally was able to cook again. It is SO hard!!! Good job on trying it out!
ReplyDeleteThanks!! Slowly but surely...
DeleteI'm a vegetarian and this still looks excellent (must be the pregnancy talking). Anyway, way to rejoin the world of normal eating! I'm looking forward to wandering back there myself sometime soon. And please do tell us when you figure out a way to effectively store tupperware. Ha.
ReplyDeleteand p.s. thanks for linking to me!
DeleteDamn tupperware. Ridiculous. I'm hoping I can keep up the "healthier" eating. Tonight was back to pasta. Bit by bit.
DeleteThat steak just looks delicious, with the sour cream and all. I try to eat mostly vegetarian-based dishes, but I am a sucker for steak, so we eat it every now and then, not very often, but still.
ReplyDeleteI am glad your eating lust is coming back at least a little bit? (And I hope nausea / queasiness is easy on you these days).