Today was a good day. I'm not sure how to write this post to totally capture what I want to say, but I'll try. I slept in this morning for the first time in a long time and rolled over and considered the idea of running away for the day. On one hand I had laundry and grocery shopping and cleaning and god knows what else to do.......on the other hand we've been working oh so hard and haven't had time to relax or connect with one another since Christmas.
So what did we do? What any other rational couple would do......we let Rock Paper Scissors decide. My husband took the side of Responsibility and I chose Fun. I won. So we took off. We drove north to wine country and just......enjoyed the day. We talked and talked and talked. Some serious stuff, some not so serious. We flirted and flirted and well, I may have even flirted with the cute guy pouring our wine who had a sexy tattoo. What can I say?
Anyhow, it was a good day. I'm so glad because I've been so down since I got my period. Yes, because, well, I'm not pregnant. But also because I think because I experienced the mood swings associated with hormones for the first time in years since I started taking birth control. What a bitch. How unfair. Like I was a black hole for about four days. Is that how it is for most women? Wow.
But now I'm back and I'm reconnected to myself and to my husband (and to wine country) and I'm just......back. It's a good thing because, throughout all of this trying-to-be-a-woman and trying-to-be-a-mother and trying-to-move-to-the-next-stage we need to remember to just BE. So, here I am. I'm back. Did you miss me?
On a positive note, I'm going to be in Mexico this cycle when I'm due for my period so, I'll either be pregnant or.......I'll pour a margarita and toast la puesta del sol.